Fylh
from from from is reading is from is reading is reading is reading reading is readingMarch 2, 2012 - 4:38pm
she was on her seventh cigarette
she seemed unconcerned by the lust she’d forced him to let fester
like an overripe orange, soggy full of wasted juice & slowly wrinkling up & inwards, screaming let me taste you, taste me, he sat facing her watching the smoke come out of her nostrils thinking let me taste the smoke at least, the seventh cigarette in less than an hour, & he didn’t smoke, he didn’t know how much we smoke when we smoke
but it seemed too much, inordinate pollution,
& yes he could smell the burning & the exhalations but he wanted to taste. So much smoke & she talked her way out of his advances, forever putting them off, putting the act & even the preliminary kisses out of the moment, lighting up cigarettes whenever the silence grew too awkward for her
so he sat still & no longer held her hand though he suspected — by some twist in his desires or by a knot he could feel in the string of her sentences — that she did want, she was waiting for the right time perhaps, she was not going to push him away forever
he sat listened nodded & nodded & all the while it was: I feel like scum, I am listening but all I want is to taste. God oh God oh God you are the perfect skin on the perfect curves
but it is more than that
you are making me feel unhealthy, I have possessed you before, why can’t I have you now? & she smoked & said things, more things, changed the subject without his prompting, changed the tone without his permission, but the tone was never the bedroom type —
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Utah
from Fort Worth, TX is reading Lonesome Dove by Larry McMurtryMarch 2, 2012 - 7:52pm
@Fyhl: Good job. I think I know her.
David Shepherd
from shepherdsville, KY is reading Idoru by William GibbsonMarch 3, 2012 - 12:11pm
I want everyone to know that you mean nothing to me. As you read this don't think I care who you are or that you're taking time out of your day, I really don't. Whether you're a bright eyed young author making your way in the world of literature or a worn down cynic holding to a wisp of your dreams, you aren't important. The only reason I make this public is out of self defense.
I'm not depressed, even though the five empty cylinders in this chamber scream otherwise. There is no sadness in my heart. No great dilemma is going to pull this trigger. There is nothing. No emotion, no spice to my life. Even as I spin the chamber and smack it back in place my heart is a calm, steady rhythm. My point is i don't want this to go down as a suicide.
This really isn't a suicide note. Just a way to tell people, if I lose, that everything was fine.Nothing to jarring has ever happened in my life. I've had my lumps but nothing to warrant this. Let's call what I'm doing a life attempt.
I need exhilaration. I need what the Vikings felt as they tore through a village, raping and pillaging. I want the rush of the fallen samurai as he commits hara-kiri. I long to feel steel bust through my armor as i struggle to free my own weapon from a rib cage. But those days are long gone. The days of glory. My biggest thrill this week was a mild argument over abortion on Facebook. I was born to late.
So, as I am pressing a barrel against my head, don't feel sorry for me. Be happy, smile for me. I don't want to die. I want to live.
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Utah
from Fort Worth, TX is reading Lonesome Dove by Larry McMurtryMarch 3, 2012 - 12:13pm
David, I like the hell out of that.
Hope you made it through.
David Shepherd
from shepherdsville, KY is reading Idoru by William GibbsonMarch 3, 2012 - 12:19pm
Thanks Utah.
Chester Pane
from Portland, Oregon is reading The Brief and Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao by Junot DiazMarch 3, 2012 - 1:38pm
I have a feeling March is truly going to be a month of Madness.
Enjoying these very much.
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March 3, 2012 - 1:46pm
March Madness? Haha.
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March 5, 2012 - 6:01pm
The Couch
Dakota Taylor
The mushrooms kick in hard, fast. These babies are no joke. Straight to the point.
The ceiling and floor are drifting away like an ocean current. The television: white noise, whirlpool of a billion angry honey bees.
I can't talk. I'm dead. Just for a little while.
My body is lead. I want to scream. I'm as thin as paper.
Sarah gazes at me, in love. She feels herself, her knitted sweater, the color of Morning Glory flowers.
"Steven..."
"Steven..."
"Steven..."
I laugh like a maniac. A rabid hyena. I don't answer her.
"What color is our couch?"
The vibes get wicked. My heart pounds so loud, I think it will deafen me.
My face is contorted. Confused like a lost child. I stare at the couch.
My palms are clammy. My organs: aware of themselves, sliding around like slugs. Fever.
We both stare at the couch. Were sitting on the floor, trying to hang on. Trying not to float away.
The walls are breathing. The couch. The couch is...
"I...I don't know."
Mock horror. We laugh. We cry.
We hold each other. The honey bees keep humming. The couch--
aliensoul77
from a cold distant star is reading the writing on the wall.March 5, 2012 - 5:52pm
Needs more in the body detail.
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March 5, 2012 - 6:02pm
Added a couple lines. Just for you Mr. Daniel.
Jay.SJ
from London is reading Warmed and BoundMarch 6, 2012 - 2:45am
I like the description of sliding around like slugs, perfectly visual and disgusting.
avery of the dead
from Kentucky is reading Cipher SistersMarch 7, 2012 - 12:01pm
FLASH! Is that how this works? I had a dream last night...
The Ocean
Fear and despair are the murders of the lost. When you give up hope, you die.
The boat is sinking, and all the advice about unflinching optimism suddenly seems so funny. Bobbing in my yellow raft, I’d tried to recall everything I’d ever heard about being lost at sea. Rinsing the sails so they don’t cake with salt, using bits of your own thigh as bait for fishing, collecting dew. But I have no sails. I have no knife. And soon, I will have no raft.
My legs dip into the water first, my upper body still supported by the remains of the neoprene raft. I glance down, but can’t make out anything much below the surface. The murky secrets of the ocean remain well hidden from sight.
I’m too dehydrated to sweat. My body is weak, but my thrashing heart races as I feel a solid thump against my leg. I look down again. I think I see a flickering shadow interlacing between my legs, but can’t be certain. I swallow back thick salty phlegm and cast my eyes out to the waning horizon. I am alone.
Frantic energy fills my chest and spreads out to my limbs. I feel it surging like electricity. My fingers go rigid and my gasps are quick and shallow. The muscles in my arms lock and quiver with hysteria. I feel the slick caress of a nameless creature along my thigh and an involuntary shriek escapes my restricting throat. Warm water inches up my chest as the tiny boat submerges completely.
I want to cry, but the damn survivalist is still working inside my mind, telling me to tread water, focus, not waste energy. You never know when salvation will come.
The slashing pain in my leg catches me off guard and I scream, but I’m already under water now, flailing down among the nameless.
wickedvoodoo
from Mansfield, England is reading stuff.March 7, 2012 - 3:37pm
avery's in the flash party! Nice.
Chester has got a mighty task on his hands this month. Flash Me! is going nuclear.
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March 7, 2012 - 5:47pm
Avery just flashed us.
Chester Pane
from Portland, Oregon is reading The Brief and Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao by Junot DiazMarch 7, 2012 - 8:02pm
Whoa. Nice Jumblies Avery! I have been wondering if you'd ever come in here. Thank you.
Yes Martin, March is insane.
By the way, I am working on your little clown girl. It might be a bit with the pond-crossing and all. And getting together with Drake to get her ink on it.
But it will get there.
avery of the dead
from Kentucky is reading Cipher SistersMarch 7, 2012 - 8:05pm
Thanks. Just thought I'd share a little.
Fritz
March 7, 2012 - 10:02pm
@ chester - is there a thread or a post for past winners? how many have there been? I don't remember voting. Of course, I didn't become really involved until like Feb 22nd (broke done and finally bought a membersip). How about February? anything going on there? I thing I remember there being something in Dec/Jan combo, but never heard of any results. Just curious.
wickedvoodoo
from Mansfield, England is reading stuff.March 7, 2012 - 11:00pm
@ Fritz
The votes for each winner had their own threads. If you search for Flash Me! on the forum search bar I'm sure you'll find them all. If I remember correctly there have been three votes so far.
@ Chester
No worries at all brother. I think it is fucking awesome of you to send the book abroad.
Matt Attack
from Richmond, Va. is reading As I Lay Dying, William FaulknerMarch 8, 2012 - 4:34pm
I have a feeling no one will ever get this. This is easily the most pointless thing I have ever written...you'll see.
He lit a cigarette and watched the cherry glow against the crushing, black night. It was the same every night. He woke in a cold sweat haunted by a tether he refused to cut loose.
She stirred beside him. "What is it?"
"Nothing. Go back to bed."
Her delicate eyes fell and she released herself to sleep once again. Her breathes came in a deep rhythm and he turned his gaze back to the middle nothing. He found his mind wandering again. It drifted with the cigarette smoke.
She stirred again. "Can I help?" Her soft hands reached his back and delicately caressed him.
He turned back to their bed and gazed on the moonlit silhouette rising up under the sheets. "You wouldn't understand."
Her hands dropped and she shifted herself in the bed, turning her back to him. He sighed heavily and snuffed the cigarette on the ashtray on their bed stand.
"I'm sorry." He said leaning forward to grip her shoulder lightly.
Her silence was heavy and deep.
"I'll be back"
He rose from their bed and reached the hall feeling his way in the murky, darkness as he went.
He stubbed his toe on an end table and cursed softly. “Shit! The things I do for love.”
He returned to the task at hand. His needless shame was calling with the urgency and beauty of a Siren. The pain of his toe subsided at the very thought of his heart’s desire. His chest seized and his mouth watered. He walked with purpose now clearing anything that stood in front of him and his love.
He reached it finally and stood before the polar cold box. His arms reached for its cover and pulled.
“Finally,” He sighed with ecstasy.
He pulled the sandwich from its plastic Tupperware coffin and devoured whole its contents. When at last his need was fulfilled he returned to sleep and longed for a full belly no more.
Fritz
March 8, 2012 - 4:38pm
Matt - I like it -
Matt Attack
from Richmond, Va. is reading As I Lay Dying, William FaulknerMarch 8, 2012 - 4:43pm
Serious? Did you get the joke? Thank you though.
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Utah
from Fort Worth, TX is reading Lonesome Dove by Larry McMurtryMarch 8, 2012 - 5:21pm
"You wouldn't understand." Truth!
Of course, if he knocks her up she will understand perfectly well.
Matt Attack
from Richmond, Va. is reading As I Lay Dying, William FaulknerMarch 8, 2012 - 5:55pm
Hahaha I figured you'd get it Utah. Glad you liked it.
MattF
from Tokyo is reading Borges' Collected FictionsMarch 9, 2012 - 10:17pm
Some great stuff in March. This is a short noir I've been kicking around for a couple of days, 680 words.
Skillet
The tires throw a mush of spent snow as the Caddy skids and straightens south through one red light and the next though no one should be pursuing for quite some time.
The girl's in the passenger seat cool as a cucumber, like she's just riding out the latest most boring day of her life. Her hands are jammed into the pockets of her coat--my coat--which is just material enough to cover all the soft naked bits beneath.
"He'll kill you," she says. Then she shakes a Fortuna Red from a soft pack and sets it between her lips.
I don't need her to tell me that any more than I need an ID to know she's too young to be smoking. I snatch the cigarette and pack with a right hand already swollen tight, and toss the whole lot out the window.
She swivels in the seat to study me. I squeeze the wheel and stare hard at the road, not wanting to know where the coat hem rises on her thigh.
"And those was your cigarettes," she says. She pops the glove compartment and pulls out a fresh pack of Dunhill's. "And this is his car." The glove snaps shut.
This is his car, she's his girlfriend, and I'm his bodyguard: three facts that seem as incongruous at the moment as a blizzard in Alabama, or its most ruthless citizen waking up two teeth short on the blood-slicked linoleum of a Crenshaw County Piggly Wiggly. But there it is.
He had her walking the aisles bare-ass naked, some punishment: "Go on and wiggle it at the Wiggly if you need them to gawk so bad"--though I was on hand to ensure they did not. Two mop-headed college boys stood grinning until my approaching countenance saw them set a six of Pibb on the ground and hustle straight out the door, sharp kids they were.
The girl hit a dead end at the butcher's case and stood shivering, waiting for it to be over, but the Boss went right on hectoring, while I stood staring at the wrapped meats, dumb as a porkchop.
Somewhere in this wicked world, I knew, she had a mother and father, and they loved her more than anything, whether she knew it or not. Maybe her old man was a real piece of work, hard-headed and stone-edged. Maybe he didn't know a damned thing about raising up little girls. So he caged her with all his discipline and gruff, the only things he knew, until she felt she just couldn't take any more, couldn't breathe, and who could blame her for that? So she ran off, survived on the gifts God gave her until she found a sugar daddy to provide the rest, and that's when she'd learn the one burnt-black truth in all this blinding white falsity: slip out of the skillet and there's nothing to catch you but fire.
A switch flipped in my skull and at once every piece of meat in that case turned to cooking. My hips shifted and my right hand launched with a force rooted straight down through the core of the earth. The Boss landed limp, like a puddle of man poured from a carton. We left him there snoring; she in my coat, us in his car.
When we're ten miles gone I double check all the vents are sending warm air her way.
"You're just a big dumb sweetheart," the girl says. She lights a Dunhill and hands it to me. I take it and fill my lungs to bursting as she puts the pack away.
"All this white knight stuff is terribly romantic," she says, "but I regret to inform you you're old enough to be my father."
Now she's starting to get it, I think.
"And butt-ugly to boot."
I exhale. Her father would give his life to see his little girl come home safe; this is the only thing I know, as I steer us somewhere, through the freak falling beauty of an Alabama snow.
Grigori Black
from US is reading Radium Girls by Amanda GowinMarch 12, 2012 - 10:04am
This looks like fun, I'll have to jump in on the next one.
Covewriter
from Nashville, Tennessee is reading & SonsMarch 12, 2012 - 9:06am
Not exactly for the Litreactor audience, more AARP, but here goes
A Youthful Moment
The weight gain happened mostly in her belly, breasts and face. Not surprising. Motivation to exercise is fleeting these days, and she makes such good pasta – penne with artichoke, angle hair with tomatoes and goat cheese. Longing for yummy food trumps weight loss every night. She knows she has put on pounds, but it is still a shock when Ella, stepping into the bathtub, catches a side-glance of her body in the mirror and feels flutters of panic.
“Oh my God I look pregnant,” she whispers to her mirror image. She grasps her belly , flabby – not firm like a pregnant one. “Surely not…” she thinks, but “what if?” and she smiles. She can’t contain the smile, and lets out a low but happy chuckle.
Dylan and Amy are both in college. She and Rob are nearly 50, done with kids. But she smiles. What if? Her smile brightens, and won’t go away. She might be pregnant! Just the thought changes the world, her view of herself and the possibilities. But it’s crazy!
“Honey,” she calls to Rob, who is in the kitchen and already dressed for work. “Come here.”
He makes his way to her.
“What’s up? “
“Do I look pregnant,” she says, standing before him naked, chemical-colored blond hair hanging around her shoulders. He thinks she’s lovely. The weight gain has not been as bad as that of most women her age, and he adores her face, her tall willowy self.
But viewing her naked body now, the possible truth hits him and he feels faint. Big and strong as he is, he sits on the edge of the bed to take in this news.
“Oh my God, you do. “
“ I haven’t had a period in months.”
“I know but you said that’s normal.You’re done with that.”
“I know,” she says. “I’m just saying what if? I mean if 10 years ago if this was happening it would be like…Yahoo.”
“ Oh Honey, don’t be pregnant,” he pleads, as if she can just say “ok.” “ I can’t do it all over again,” he explains. “ I just don’t see how. I mean it was great with the kids, but we are too old to start over.” He remembers working at the bank on four hours of sleep, the crying, the ear infections, endless doctor appointments.
Her throat tightens. “I’m probably not,” she says, turning away. “It’s probably menopause. I’ll go get a test. ” Even as she offers this, and pulls her sweats back on without having taken the bath, hot tears roll down her cheeks. She busies herself, brushes her hair, to avoid him.
How crazy to think she might be pregnant. She had no desire for another child until that moment – until the brief possibility. it’s crazy. She is too old. But still, for a moment it made her happy -- made her feel young again. If it’s another boy, she would name him after her father.
But as fast as the happiness welled , disappontemnt wipes it away. Be sensible, she thinks. You have hot flashes at night, stripping off pajamas and blankets all through the early-morning hours.
But for one moment – another baby! Another chance! But there would not be another baby. She is just fat, menopausal, hormones making her crazy – taking her on huge highs then dropping her hard. She will take a pregnancy test to be sure, then go on a diet.
Ella examines her face in the mirror. She still looks young. A few lines around the mouth.She’s still pretty, even with the red eyes and no make-up. So why so empty?
“Honey,” Rob says, sensing this. “It’s okay if you’re pregnant. I love you.” He takes the brush and strokes her hair as they look at themselves in the mirror.
“It’s not that,” she chokes, turning toward him. “I didn’t know I wanted to be pregnant until I got the idea in my head that maybe….and now I want to be .But I don’t think I am. It makes no sense. "Her nose runs and she cries freely.
“Ah Honey, “ he says hugging her. “We have so much to look forward to. Last thing we need is a kid.”
“I know,” she says, sniffling. “I’ll go buy a test just so we won’t have to worry ” She tugs on a t-shirt and jacket and leaves. Rob breathes a sigh of relief. Surely she is not pregnant. This is another of her moods. Another child is not what they need.
He retreats to the internet to check a few things before work. He looks at vacation deals. Maybe a European cruise? Maybe one to Alaska? .
Bill Tucker
from Austin, Texas is reading Grimm's Fairy Tales (1st Edition)March 12, 2012 - 9:35pm
And The Sprayer Sprtized Lavender
The first thing I saw as I made that right turn towards a non-descript room was a sobbing young woman leaving it. My mom looked back at me with terror in her eyes, flushed face, quivering lip. The room itself was sparse, two chairs along the left wall, two in the back. A box of Kleenex sat on a corner end table between the seat sets, but that was it. No old magazines, no TV. Just a bland picture of beach umbrellas dotting an imaginary shore and an old style water cooler with the old style cups, the conical kind that barely held water. The air smelt of antiseptic and over starched linens, despite the automatic scent spritzer that spat out lavender every two minutes. Mom sat to the left, me in the back.
It only took two sprays before the doctor came in. He had a clipboard in hand but didn’t read from it. I only heard the words “complication” and “all we could” before my heart hammered breath rushed free from my chest and my eyeballs started to water. My mother’s mouth was trapped in half scream, half sob, her hands palming her head like a basketball. The air was eerie and silent until an explosion of sound escaped my throat, alarm bells and gongs clanging racket in my head while my mind screamed to stop it, stop it but I couldn’t, wouldn’t. Rising from my chair, I staggered towards her with my arms outstretched. I reached her, fell to her grasp and held on for dear life as my lungs tried their best to vacate my body.
Before the spray spritzed a third time, the doctor was gone. In his wake, two people laid clutching where time hung irrelevant. My mom’s friend, who drove us to the hospital “just in case”, rushed in to see where the screams came from. Her swollen eyes proved that the outcome was clear before she reached the doorway. Wrapping her big arms around us both, she had nothing to add to our chorus of sound. As our vocal chords tired and waned, the harsh, wooden noise our throats had been making ebbed into silence. The room was quiet again but we couldn’t get up. Stuck in that chair, underneath the umbrella dotted shore, our limbs refused to move. Our bodies rigid in fixed position seemed content to lay dormant forever.
But by the time the sprayer spritzed lavender a third time, we were gone. We got up.
Bill Tucker
from Austin, Texas is reading Grimm's Fairy Tales (1st Edition)March 13, 2012 - 6:59pm
And by the way as I review this thread:
@MattF freaking LOVE that story. Perfectly paced. I want nothing more than to see where that car takes those two. Extremely strong stuff.
@Cove didn't find that story AARP at all. Really tense yet honest moment between a couple. Enjoyed it alot!
Fritz
March 13, 2012 - 7:47pm
Chester - serious - you have many, many 1000 word stories to chose from for your 5 already and the month isn't halfway done. Bravo on choosing - going to be tough.
MattF
from Tokyo is reading Borges' Collected FictionsMarch 13, 2012 - 9:02pm
@ Bill Tucker: Thanks, I really appreciate that. I sketched it as a seed for something longer, if I ever get to it...
Now 14 flavors in 14 days...Could March see 31? Will Chester Pane rue the day he upped the word count to 1,000? Stay tuned for these answers and more, only right here on Flash Me!
PandaMask
from Los Angeles is reading More Than HumanMarch 14, 2012 - 9:08am
Chipped
What's it like after someone meets you?
Does everything you tell them further their interest in you?
Or does it slowly diminish?
That's my problem. I come off strong at the start. Sometimes too strong, and other times just enough.
But over time, maybe less than that, it goes away. They realize my flaws, the scars covering my psyche and flesh. The places where I'm damaged and broke. Things I can't fix and things that many people don't care to try and fix.
Sometimes I feel like a hundred dollar bill. That's a fair amount of money. It's a comfortable thought, having that bill in your pocket. There are numerous things you can buy with that. But over time that amount lessens, its value lessens, to the point that all you have left is a dollar and some change.
Could have been worth more as an investment, or you could have tossed the change in the gutter.
Covewriter
from Nashville, Tennessee is reading & SonsMarch 14, 2012 - 10:53am
I think the War contest sparked people to write for this. It was a way to take a break from the war story for a bit, but still have something to submit. Maybe that's why so many submissions in March. Plus it gets fun to submit to something. I don't know what to vote for.I have three favorites so far.
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Utah
from Fort Worth, TX is reading Lonesome Dove by Larry McMurtryMarch 14, 2012 - 11:32am
I'm totally leaving that "fun to submit" line alone.
Covewriter
from Nashville, Tennessee is reading & SonsMarch 14, 2012 - 11:51am
Funny and clever. I didn't read it that way unit you put it in quotes! It's not what i meant!
avery of the dead
from Kentucky is reading Cipher SistersMarch 14, 2012 - 12:04pm
Sure you didn't. It's okay. I understand.
Fritz
March 14, 2012 - 12:06pm
@ cove. Nah. My ego says its because of me. And my ego is never wrong.... Ever
@utah. I think chasey lain did a movie on the 'fun to submit' theme a time or two
Haha. Haha.
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Utah
from Fort Worth, TX is reading Lonesome Dove by Larry McMurtryMarch 14, 2012 - 12:16pm
Dear Chasey Lain,
I must constrain, this letter is my last.
As your biggest fan, I must demand
You let me....
Covewriter
from Nashville, Tennessee is reading & SonsMarch 14, 2012 - 1:03pm
Easy to Submit must be a writing thread somewhere.
SConley
from Texas is reading Coin Locker BabiesMarch 15, 2012 - 6:40am
Secrets
We were at this party in Reno, her and I. She was sitting with a slouch on the kitchen counter surrounded by her friends. I was outside in the biting cold surrounded by her friends. My every breath escaped me in little fogs. I kept her in my periphery, she kept me in hers. What were they talking about? Her friends? I can't remember.
But I remember the music. She must have chosen the playlist because all of the songs were so good. That's what I liked the most about her, she always listened to the best music. Drumming her fingers so softly on me as we listened to songs. Then a familiar one came on, a sad one. "The Funeral" by Band of Horses.
I did well with her friends, kept my cool. They kept asking probing questions about how the 2 of us met and i didn't volunteer much information. They were sent by her new boyfriend and if he found out the truth about what her and I used to be, he'd cause her problems. So they didn't get the answers they wanted. I kept our secret. I knew about that Band of Horses concert she went to years ago and how it made her cry. I think I'm one of the only people alive who knows about it.
The song is playing inside and I can hear it outside so I watch her in there surrounded by her friends. Now they're talking about the song playing, asking what it is. She lights up and says loudly how they're really good live. Nobody seems to notice her so she slouches back down. Then she looks out at me, right through the door into my eyes. The air suspends between us. I send her a tiny shrug and a half-smile. Her mouth twitches in sadness and she hops down from the counter and disappears into the house so I won't see her cry. Or maybe it was so her friends won't see her cry. They can't know our secret. He can't know our secret.
The rest of the party was unremarkable.
Bill Tucker
from Austin, Texas is reading Grimm's Fairy Tales (1st Edition)March 15, 2012 - 6:47am
@Conley, nice stuff! I really like your ending line. Says alot in a few words, which is always the sign of good writing. Well done!
SConley
from Texas is reading Coin Locker BabiesMarch 15, 2012 - 7:50am
Thanks. I actually tacked on the last line because i didn't like how it ended. I wasn't sure if it would work. I almost wrote a crime story last night too but maybe i'll save that one for next time.
Hetch Litman
from Somewhere in the mountains of the Pacific Northwest is reading The Violent Bear it Away by Flannery O'Connor March 15, 2012 - 10:37pm
I'm fucking drunk. I am going to write somehting now and see what comes out.
Amber
By Hetch Litman
I had to kill it. Sometimes situations dictate death, I’ve come to accept. It was not personal. It wasn’t like it was something muddle-headed like the color of her hair or the way her cunt might smell like iron, thick with mensttal blood when she walked past me. It was not something fatuous like the way her whore high heels clicked or the weight of her dress. No, it wasn't something puerile like her purple contact lenses or senseless like sheer stockings, and definitely not something immature like the shape of her hard jaw or the passive silhouette of her calf framed by brick buildings and water. There is always water, blue and soft. No, it was none of those petty or cheap reasons. It was much deeper and than that. More conspicuous. It was her throat. The Adams apple. Her cock.
Rewind sixteen minutes. Go back 3 shots of Rare Breed and a sterling silver pipe scoop of coke. Retract nine hundred and sixty seconds from this smoke charged bar stool and maybe it would not have had to come to this. Hey Honey how are you? Buy a lady a drink (voice Mellissa Etheride gruff, sexy) Canter, hop, hurdle or jerk a head in repose, flick a thumb and hitchhike, mindful of time and water, always mindful of water, rearward, plunge or pounce practically away from what has now to happen and the life of this asshole might have had a fucking chance. Practicality dictates some modicum of respect for life after all. But not this time. Not now. Never now. Never nows. Never this times.
I never buy a drink for someone whos name I don’t know. “Amber comes the reply.Hi Amber, I’m Chuck. What are you drinking?”
To be fair his lipstick ring tattoos the base of my cock isnt a bad color. Some kind of Saint Germain or Speak Louder or perhaps a politely pink. It Actually brings out the cream in my helmet and the cherry in my shaft. The blood from his busted incisors, though, (a stike from my commonplace, nude knee), sticks to my sack as I hold his head under truculent blue toilet water, (a cinematographers dream shot to be sure) frothing and determined to escape the bowl.
"Hey honey, how are you? Buy a mother fucker a drink?" I ask genuinely concerned as my eyes drink in the quite feminine ass and my right hand, disguised as a fist connects with his kidneys. A hundred bubbles thank me in vivid, television commercial blue as this things lung or two purge air. Before the meat dies, I let it breath. I gather the real long hair toward my chin, give it breath, and whisper in its ear. “You made me do this.”
My cum coated its mouth before I found the worm in its pants. Being raised by a single mother and not a father killed this asshole. Think about it. Wellsian music gets higher in the register and more pronounced. Louder and more articulated. Now, wait. Just wait. Wait there, secure in your pajamas, head on your pillow . Just wait. Do you hear that? Those are screams. Lucky for me the band, babyland, has not stopped playing. Hopefully no one has to jack off, you’d be surprised how many people jack off in a club bathroom. I wouldn’t sit on the seats if I were you. That or piss and then no one else has to die.
Maybe I can beat the demons out of this cocksucker. This faggot has gone hopefully vegetable. Sure, He'll get an outpouring of support from the community and maybe the radio left and mayhap I'll be demonized. It's just the way of the world today. It sort of gives me superpowers though, but only if it's dead. Alive its a liberal talking piece, a martyr, something to worship and pray too. An ad in a national magazine or on NPR. Something for big city men to cry openly about on the TV, showing their feminine side. the same side that sucked my cock and I rebuke that in the name of Jesus
I've pulled the hand dryer from the wall. Don’t fret I didn’t hurt anything. It was a few paultry drywalls screws and a cumful of glue. I say out loud I've never understood them. Give me a dry domestic single ply, rough, hand towel anyday. "Amber, Isn't that what you said your name was? Thanks for the blow job." I looked at it's satisfactory bitch ass again and brought the dryer down on it's head. Again. Again. Again.
Grey pasta of brains mingled with deep red Pollock swatches of thick blood find my shoes and stroke my cheeks. I’d be mad if it wasn’t so attractive. I’d be concerned if it didn’t get me hard. Erections, after all dictate time spent. I’d be sedate if it wasn’t such a trustworthy friend. bone fragments sing falsetto and I orgasm. I think the future might smile lightly on my hands and feet that thrust kicks deep into the ribs, water, again, splashing and dancing making me smile large and in charge.
I check out its cock. I wonder if it was always that small or if female hormones made it shrivel, balls small and sack empty. From behind, head smashed in the bowl the asshole looks that same as a girls. I think of sex operations and turing scrotums inside out to make a slot and if this one had been post op how I might have fucked that slot unknowingly and it would still be breathing. I would feel pity, I think, if it lived in that precise moment. Just maybe, I think, the water might absolve it. At that moment, I biblically look to the future.
Later, in prepared remarks, written not to antagonize the jury, I am certain I will conveniently explain I didn't remember any of this. That day God will love God fearing men. Tonight, He loves Amber.
The End.
jyh
from VA is reading whatever he feels likeMarch 16, 2012 - 12:52am
The Dogs (after The Devourers by Annie Vivanti Chartres) by J. Y. Hopkins
The puppy is walking slowly down the avenue when, suddenly, he's kicked by a transvestite. He's sad, but not hurt all that bad.
He grows up to be a pretty badass dog -- he eats people all the time. People tell stories about him like he's the yeti. But he's just a dog -- everybody knows he's there, so it's not really scary. Somebody gets eaten, but they have to die one way or another. It's not that they sympathize with him because he got kicked by a tranny, they just don't care.
The dog mates with another dog. Anyone watching would say that it was consensual, but who knows with dogs? Just because the dog doesn't try to kill the other dog, does that mean it's not rape? Who knows? It seems consensual though and the female dog has a bunch of puppies. One day, the main dog gets uppity and eats the mayor's son and is put down. The puppies have no idea how badass their daddy dog was.
Years later one of them gets kicked by a policeman, but the dog stays pretty much normal until his mom eats his sister because she gets pregnant. Then he eats his mom. No one thinks that's noteworthy, so this is the first story anybody's telling about that dog, the one who ate his mom because she ate his pregnant sister.
Limbless K9
from Oregon is reading WraeththuMarch 16, 2012 - 5:54am
Lover's Rock
By Brandon Marnier
It had been a long week. Two affairs, and the discovery of seven lies about said affairs led to what was happening now. She was naked on their bed, gorgeous as always, but quiet and distant. She was thinking, about what he had done, what he had lied about. She was thinking about how much it hurt, but still she never let the pain show. She turned off. She turned off and sat there on their bed, waiting for something, anything that would break this dream of hers. If she could just wake up this wouldn’t be happening.
Secrets are kept and lies are told so often that they sound like the truth. The words that come out of his mouth sound honest but never are and that’s why she is sitting there quietly. He had hurt her, deeply, yet he did nothing to try and make up for his mistake. There was no apologies and there was no begging or groveling, which she desperately wanted him to do.
He sat there with her in comfortable silence, listening to the rain hit the window. He knew that he should apologize, that he should be on his knees begging her not to leave, but he knew that this would happen again and that it would hurt worse the next time his secrets were discovered. She looked at him, her eyes empty and dull. He knew what she wanted to say. He knew what she was thinking. Why did you do it? He wanted to answer but the truth would hurt and telling another lie was out of the question.
They stared at each other in their comfortable silence, knowing exactly where their relationship was headed, knowing that ending things would destroy one and breathe life into the other. She would go on to become a successful lawyer without him dragging her down and causing endless pain and distractions. He would become suicidal and drink himself to death within a year. His future was grim, but her future was bright.
She realized she was naked then, she remembered how excited she was to surprise him when he came home and realized how one voice message on their answering machine destroyed everything. She wished his lies were true. She put her clothes on and left. She’d be back soon to get her things but for now she needed to be alone. He sat there on the bed as she put her clothes on and when he heard their front door shut, he knew it was over. She was leaving.
wickedvoodoo
from Mansfield, England is reading stuff.March 17, 2012 - 4:51am
This one isn't really meant as a submission, because it's an extract from something else I'm working on. This little passage though, I thought was funny. I dedicate it to Danny, because it seems like his kind of thing.
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Mother hangs from the ceiling, her bloated flanks drooping where the straps of the leather lattice are taut. She's huge, a monstrous landscape of flesh. Inguinal valleys split the mounds of her thighs and pus leaks from the creases, no doubt exuding from the abscesses hidden within. Her lower legs are withered to laughable stumps. Her crotch is clenched like a fist.
Devices like giant bidets mist her with a sticky pink fluid.
Her upper half is a quivering mass of a dozen amalgamated breasts. Nipples hang here and there like limp and broken fingers. Her face is hidden, a rubber mask strapped around her head. Three different hoses lead from the mask to piping on the ceiling. Bunches of intravenous lines run from bags of milky fluid that hang around her and puncture her sweaty, stubbly skin.
The smell in here is palpable, a warm, faecal stink that hangs in the air and seems to trail from anything that moves.
She's bloated with fluid, a blister with limbs, parts of her tight and ready to burst. She shifts her weight in the straps and her body ripples, each breast bouncing a flabby little jiggle.
The worst part though, swings between her legs. From between the knuckle shaped lips of her vagina dangles a pale yellow sac the size of a child that pulsates with urgent movement.
aliensoul77
from a cold distant star is reading the writing on the wall.March 17, 2012 - 4:54am
Um....that was creepy, it kinda made me wanna do this...
wickedvoodoo
from Mansfield, England is reading stuff.March 17, 2012 - 5:06am
*blows a kiss*
It's an extract from a story I was hoping to have finished for my mum in time for mother's day. Alas, I don't know if I will ever finish it now. I got bored or distracted or something. Maybe I will go back to it sometime.
Grigori Black
from US is reading Radium Girls by Amanda GowinMarch 17, 2012 - 10:13am
@aleinsoul77
man, that's a great one. You can see where the stuntman missed the center and hit the frame. Perfect.
Chester Pane
from Portland, Oregon is reading The Brief and Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao by Junot DiazMarch 26, 2012 - 7:26pm
^^^^^^ Good stuff up there people.
Alright, only a few days left!
wickedvoodoo
from Mansfield, England is reading stuff.March 26, 2012 - 7:45pm
I reckon you are on with your toughest call yet, Chester matey, trying to whittle down all the March posts into five for a vote. Best of luck. It is going to be a good one.
she was on her seventh cigarette
she seemed unconcerned by the lust she’d forced him to let fester
like an overripe orange, soggy full of wasted juice & slowly wrinkling up & inwards, screaming let me taste you, taste me, he sat facing her watching the smoke come out of her nostrils thinking let me taste the smoke at least, the seventh cigarette in less than an hour, & he didn’t smoke, he didn’t know how much we smoke when we smoke
but it seemed too much, inordinate pollution,
& yes he could smell the burning & the exhalations but he wanted to taste. So much smoke & she talked her way out of his advances, forever putting them off, putting the act & even the preliminary kisses out of the moment, lighting up cigarettes whenever the silence grew too awkward for her
so he sat still & no longer held her hand though he suspected — by some twist in his desires or by a knot he could feel in the string of her sentences — that she did want, she was waiting for the right time perhaps, she was not going to push him away forever
he sat listened nodded & nodded & all the while it was: I feel like scum, I am listening but all I want is to taste. God oh God oh God you are the perfect skin on the perfect curves
but it is more than that
you are making me feel unhealthy, I have possessed you before, why can’t I have you now? & she smoked & said things, more things, changed the subject without his prompting, changed the tone without his permission, but the tone was never the bedroom type —
@Fyhl: Good job. I think I know her.
I want everyone to know that you mean nothing to me. As you read this don't think I care who you are or that you're taking time out of your day, I really don't. Whether you're a bright eyed young author making your way in the world of literature or a worn down cynic holding to a wisp of your dreams, you aren't important. The only reason I make this public is out of self defense.
I'm not depressed, even though the five empty cylinders in this chamber scream otherwise. There is no sadness in my heart. No great dilemma is going to pull this trigger. There is nothing. No emotion, no spice to my life. Even as I spin the chamber and smack it back in place my heart is a calm, steady rhythm. My point is i don't want this to go down as a suicide.
This really isn't a suicide note. Just a way to tell people, if I lose, that everything was fine.Nothing to jarring has ever happened in my life. I've had my lumps but nothing to warrant this. Let's call what I'm doing a life attempt.
I need exhilaration. I need what the Vikings felt as they tore through a village, raping and pillaging. I want the rush of the fallen samurai as he commits hara-kiri. I long to feel steel bust through my armor as i struggle to free my own weapon from a rib cage. But those days are long gone. The days of glory. My biggest thrill this week was a mild argument over abortion on Facebook. I was born to late.
So, as I am pressing a barrel against my head, don't feel sorry for me. Be happy, smile for me. I don't want to die. I want to live.
David, I like the hell out of that.
Hope you made it through.
Thanks Utah.
I have a feeling March is truly going to be a month of Madness.
Enjoying these very much.
March Madness? Haha.
The Couch
Dakota Taylor
The mushrooms kick in hard, fast. These babies are no joke. Straight to the point.
The ceiling and floor are drifting away like an ocean current. The television: white noise, whirlpool of a billion angry honey bees.
I can't talk. I'm dead. Just for a little while.
My body is lead. I want to scream. I'm as thin as paper.
Sarah gazes at me, in love. She feels herself, her knitted sweater, the color of Morning Glory flowers.
"Steven..."
"Steven..."
"Steven..."
I laugh like a maniac. A rabid hyena. I don't answer her.
"What color is our couch?"
The vibes get wicked. My heart pounds so loud, I think it will deafen me.
My face is contorted. Confused like a lost child. I stare at the couch.
My palms are clammy. My organs: aware of themselves, sliding around like slugs. Fever.
We both stare at the couch. Were sitting on the floor, trying to hang on. Trying not to float away.
The walls are breathing. The couch. The couch is...
"I...I don't know."
Mock horror. We laugh. We cry.
We hold each other. The honey bees keep humming. The couch--
Needs more in the body detail.
Added a couple lines. Just for you Mr. Daniel.
I like the description of sliding around like slugs, perfectly visual and disgusting.
FLASH! Is that how this works? I had a dream last night...
The Ocean
Fear and despair are the murders of the lost. When you give up hope, you die.
The boat is sinking, and all the advice about unflinching optimism suddenly seems so funny. Bobbing in my yellow raft, I’d tried to recall everything I’d ever heard about being lost at sea. Rinsing the sails so they don’t cake with salt, using bits of your own thigh as bait for fishing, collecting dew. But I have no sails. I have no knife. And soon, I will have no raft.
My legs dip into the water first, my upper body still supported by the remains of the neoprene raft. I glance down, but can’t make out anything much below the surface. The murky secrets of the ocean remain well hidden from sight.
I’m too dehydrated to sweat. My body is weak, but my thrashing heart races as I feel a solid thump against my leg. I look down again. I think I see a flickering shadow interlacing between my legs, but can’t be certain. I swallow back thick salty phlegm and cast my eyes out to the waning horizon. I am alone.
Frantic energy fills my chest and spreads out to my limbs. I feel it surging like electricity. My fingers go rigid and my gasps are quick and shallow. The muscles in my arms lock and quiver with hysteria. I feel the slick caress of a nameless creature along my thigh and an involuntary shriek escapes my restricting throat. Warm water inches up my chest as the tiny boat submerges completely.
I want to cry, but the damn survivalist is still working inside my mind, telling me to tread water, focus, not waste energy. You never know when salvation will come.
The slashing pain in my leg catches me off guard and I scream, but I’m already under water now, flailing down among the nameless.
avery's in the flash party! Nice.
Chester has got a mighty task on his hands this month. Flash Me! is going nuclear.
Avery just flashed us.
Whoa. Nice Jumblies Avery! I have been wondering if you'd ever come in here. Thank you.
Yes Martin, March is insane.
By the way, I am working on your little clown girl. It might be a bit with the pond-crossing and all. And getting together with Drake to get her ink on it.
But it will get there.
Thanks. Just thought I'd share a little.
@ chester - is there a thread or a post for past winners? how many have there been? I don't remember voting. Of course, I didn't become really involved until like Feb 22nd (broke done and finally bought a membersip). How about February? anything going on there? I thing I remember there being something in Dec/Jan combo, but never heard of any results. Just curious.
@ Fritz
The votes for each winner had their own threads. If you search for Flash Me! on the forum search bar I'm sure you'll find them all. If I remember correctly there have been three votes so far.
@ Chester
No worries at all brother. I think it is fucking awesome of you to send the book abroad.
I have a feeling no one will ever get this. This is easily the most pointless thing I have ever written...you'll see.
He lit a cigarette and watched the cherry glow against the crushing, black night. It was the same every night. He woke in a cold sweat haunted by a tether he refused to cut loose.
She stirred beside him. "What is it?"
"Nothing. Go back to bed."
Her delicate eyes fell and she released herself to sleep once again. Her breathes came in a deep rhythm and he turned his gaze back to the middle nothing. He found his mind wandering again. It drifted with the cigarette smoke.
She stirred again. "Can I help?" Her soft hands reached his back and delicately caressed him.
He turned back to their bed and gazed on the moonlit silhouette rising up under the sheets. "You wouldn't understand."
Her hands dropped and she shifted herself in the bed, turning her back to him. He sighed heavily and snuffed the cigarette on the ashtray on their bed stand.
"I'm sorry." He said leaning forward to grip her shoulder lightly.
Her silence was heavy and deep.
"I'll be back"
He rose from their bed and reached the hall feeling his way in the murky, darkness as he went.
He stubbed his toe on an end table and cursed softly. “Shit! The things I do for love.”
He returned to the task at hand. His needless shame was calling with the urgency and beauty of a Siren. The pain of his toe subsided at the very thought of his heart’s desire. His chest seized and his mouth watered. He walked with purpose now clearing anything that stood in front of him and his love.
He reached it finally and stood before the polar cold box. His arms reached for its cover and pulled.
“Finally,” He sighed with ecstasy.
He pulled the sandwich from its plastic Tupperware coffin and devoured whole its contents. When at last his need was fulfilled he returned to sleep and longed for a full belly no more.
Matt - I like it -
Serious? Did you get the joke? Thank you though.
"You wouldn't understand." Truth!
Of course, if he knocks her up she will understand perfectly well.
Hahaha I figured you'd get it Utah. Glad you liked it.
Some great stuff in March. This is a short noir I've been kicking around for a couple of days, 680 words.
Skillet
The tires throw a mush of spent snow as the Caddy skids and straightens south through one red light and the next though no one should be pursuing for quite some time.
The girl's in the passenger seat cool as a cucumber, like she's just riding out the latest most boring day of her life. Her hands are jammed into the pockets of her coat--my coat--which is just material enough to cover all the soft naked bits beneath.
"He'll kill you," she says. Then she shakes a Fortuna Red from a soft pack and sets it between her lips.
I don't need her to tell me that any more than I need an ID to know she's too young to be smoking. I snatch the cigarette and pack with a right hand already swollen tight, and toss the whole lot out the window.
She swivels in the seat to study me. I squeeze the wheel and stare hard at the road, not wanting to know where the coat hem rises on her thigh.
"And those was your cigarettes," she says. She pops the glove compartment and pulls out a fresh pack of Dunhill's. "And this is his car." The glove snaps shut.
This is his car, she's his girlfriend, and I'm his bodyguard: three facts that seem as incongruous at the moment as a blizzard in Alabama, or its most ruthless citizen waking up two teeth short on the blood-slicked linoleum of a Crenshaw County Piggly Wiggly. But there it is.
He had her walking the aisles bare-ass naked, some punishment: "Go on and wiggle it at the Wiggly if you need them to gawk so bad"--though I was on hand to ensure they did not. Two mop-headed college boys stood grinning until my approaching countenance saw them set a six of Pibb on the ground and hustle straight out the door, sharp kids they were.
The girl hit a dead end at the butcher's case and stood shivering, waiting for it to be over, but the Boss went right on hectoring, while I stood staring at the wrapped meats, dumb as a porkchop.
Somewhere in this wicked world, I knew, she had a mother and father, and they loved her more than anything, whether she knew it or not. Maybe her old man was a real piece of work, hard-headed and stone-edged. Maybe he didn't know a damned thing about raising up little girls. So he caged her with all his discipline and gruff, the only things he knew, until she felt she just couldn't take any more, couldn't breathe, and who could blame her for that? So she ran off, survived on the gifts God gave her until she found a sugar daddy to provide the rest, and that's when she'd learn the one burnt-black truth in all this blinding white falsity: slip out of the skillet and there's nothing to catch you but fire.
A switch flipped in my skull and at once every piece of meat in that case turned to cooking. My hips shifted and my right hand launched with a force rooted straight down through the core of the earth. The Boss landed limp, like a puddle of man poured from a carton. We left him there snoring; she in my coat, us in his car.
When we're ten miles gone I double check all the vents are sending warm air her way.
"You're just a big dumb sweetheart," the girl says. She lights a Dunhill and hands it to me. I take it and fill my lungs to bursting as she puts the pack away.
"All this white knight stuff is terribly romantic," she says, "but I regret to inform you you're old enough to be my father."
Now she's starting to get it, I think.
"And butt-ugly to boot."
I exhale. Her father would give his life to see his little girl come home safe; this is the only thing I know, as I steer us somewhere, through the freak falling beauty of an Alabama snow.
This looks like fun, I'll have to jump in on the next one.
Not exactly for the Litreactor audience, more AARP, but here goes
A Youthful Moment
The weight gain happened mostly in her belly, breasts and face. Not surprising. Motivation to exercise is fleeting these days, and she makes such good pasta – penne with artichoke, angle hair with tomatoes and goat cheese. Longing for yummy food trumps weight loss every night. She knows she has put on pounds, but it is still a shock when Ella, stepping into the bathtub, catches a side-glance of her body in the mirror and feels flutters of panic.
“Oh my God I look pregnant,” she whispers to her mirror image. She grasps her belly , flabby – not firm like a pregnant one. “Surely not…” she thinks, but “what if?” and she smiles. She can’t contain the smile, and lets out a low but happy chuckle.
Dylan and Amy are both in college. She and Rob are nearly 50, done with kids. But she smiles. What if? Her smile brightens, and won’t go away. She might be pregnant! Just the thought changes the world, her view of herself and the possibilities. But it’s crazy!
“Honey,” she calls to Rob, who is in the kitchen and already dressed for work. “Come here.”
He makes his way to her.
“What’s up? “
“Do I look pregnant,” she says, standing before him naked, chemical-colored blond hair hanging around her shoulders. He thinks she’s lovely. The weight gain has not been as bad as that of most women her age, and he adores her face, her tall willowy self.
But viewing her naked body now, the possible truth hits him and he feels faint. Big and strong as he is, he sits on the edge of the bed to take in this news.
“Oh my God, you do. “
“ I haven’t had a period in months.”
“I know but you said that’s normal.You’re done with that.”
“I know,” she says. “I’m just saying what if? I mean if 10 years ago if this was happening it would be like…Yahoo.”
“ Oh Honey, don’t be pregnant,” he pleads, as if she can just say “ok.” “ I can’t do it all over again,” he explains. “ I just don’t see how. I mean it was great with the kids, but we are too old to start over.” He remembers working at the bank on four hours of sleep, the crying, the ear infections, endless doctor appointments.
Her throat tightens. “I’m probably not,” she says, turning away. “It’s probably menopause. I’ll go get a test. ” Even as she offers this, and pulls her sweats back on without having taken the bath, hot tears roll down her cheeks. She busies herself, brushes her hair, to avoid him.
How crazy to think she might be pregnant. She had no desire for another child until that moment – until the brief possibility. it’s crazy. She is too old. But still, for a moment it made her happy -- made her feel young again. If it’s another boy, she would name him after her father.
But as fast as the happiness welled , disappontemnt wipes it away. Be sensible, she thinks. You have hot flashes at night, stripping off pajamas and blankets all through the early-morning hours.
But for one moment – another baby! Another chance! But there would not be another baby. She is just fat, menopausal, hormones making her crazy – taking her on huge highs then dropping her hard. She will take a pregnancy test to be sure, then go on a diet.
Ella examines her face in the mirror. She still looks young. A few lines around the mouth.She’s still pretty, even with the red eyes and no make-up. So why so empty?
“Honey,” Rob says, sensing this. “It’s okay if you’re pregnant. I love you.” He takes the brush and strokes her hair as they look at themselves in the mirror.
“It’s not that,” she chokes, turning toward him. “I didn’t know I wanted to be pregnant until I got the idea in my head that maybe….and now I want to be .But I don’t think I am. It makes no sense. "Her nose runs and she cries freely.
“Ah Honey, “ he says hugging her. “We have so much to look forward to. Last thing we need is a kid.”
“I know,” she says, sniffling. “I’ll go buy a test just so we won’t have to worry ” She tugs on a t-shirt and jacket and leaves. Rob breathes a sigh of relief. Surely she is not pregnant. This is another of her moods. Another child is not what they need.
He retreats to the internet to check a few things before work. He looks at vacation deals. Maybe a European cruise? Maybe one to Alaska? .
And The Sprayer Sprtized Lavender
The first thing I saw as I made that right turn towards a non-descript room was a sobbing young woman leaving it. My mom looked back at me with terror in her eyes, flushed face, quivering lip. The room itself was sparse, two chairs along the left wall, two in the back. A box of Kleenex sat on a corner end table between the seat sets, but that was it. No old magazines, no TV. Just a bland picture of beach umbrellas dotting an imaginary shore and an old style water cooler with the old style cups, the conical kind that barely held water. The air smelt of antiseptic and over starched linens, despite the automatic scent spritzer that spat out lavender every two minutes. Mom sat to the left, me in the back.
It only took two sprays before the doctor came in. He had a clipboard in hand but didn’t read from it. I only heard the words “complication” and “all we could” before my heart hammered breath rushed free from my chest and my eyeballs started to water. My mother’s mouth was trapped in half scream, half sob, her hands palming her head like a basketball. The air was eerie and silent until an explosion of sound escaped my throat, alarm bells and gongs clanging racket in my head while my mind screamed to stop it, stop it but I couldn’t, wouldn’t. Rising from my chair, I staggered towards her with my arms outstretched. I reached her, fell to her grasp and held on for dear life as my lungs tried their best to vacate my body.
Before the spray spritzed a third time, the doctor was gone. In his wake, two people laid clutching where time hung irrelevant. My mom’s friend, who drove us to the hospital “just in case”, rushed in to see where the screams came from. Her swollen eyes proved that the outcome was clear before she reached the doorway. Wrapping her big arms around us both, she had nothing to add to our chorus of sound. As our vocal chords tired and waned, the harsh, wooden noise our throats had been making ebbed into silence. The room was quiet again but we couldn’t get up. Stuck in that chair, underneath the umbrella dotted shore, our limbs refused to move. Our bodies rigid in fixed position seemed content to lay dormant forever.
But by the time the sprayer spritzed lavender a third time, we were gone. We got up.
And by the way as I review this thread:
@MattF freaking LOVE that story. Perfectly paced. I want nothing more than to see where that car takes those two. Extremely strong stuff.
@Cove didn't find that story AARP at all. Really tense yet honest moment between a couple. Enjoyed it alot!
Chester - serious - you have many, many 1000 word stories to chose from for your 5 already and the month isn't halfway done. Bravo on choosing - going to be tough.
@ Bill Tucker: Thanks, I really appreciate that. I sketched it as a seed for something longer, if I ever get to it...
Now 14 flavors in 14 days...Could March see 31? Will Chester Pane rue the day he upped the word count to 1,000? Stay tuned for these answers and more, only right here on Flash Me!
Chipped
What's it like after someone meets you?
Does everything you tell them further their interest in you?
Or does it slowly diminish?
That's my problem. I come off strong at the start. Sometimes too strong, and other times just enough.
But over time, maybe less than that, it goes away. They realize my flaws, the scars covering my psyche and flesh. The places where I'm damaged and broke. Things I can't fix and things that many people don't care to try and fix.
Sometimes I feel like a hundred dollar bill. That's a fair amount of money. It's a comfortable thought, having that bill in your pocket. There are numerous things you can buy with that. But over time that amount lessens, its value lessens, to the point that all you have left is a dollar and some change.
Could have been worth more as an investment, or you could have tossed the change in the gutter.
I think the War contest sparked people to write for this. It was a way to take a break from the war story for a bit, but still have something to submit. Maybe that's why so many submissions in March. Plus it gets fun to submit to something. I don't know what to vote for.I have three favorites so far.
I'm totally leaving that "fun to submit" line alone.
Funny and clever. I didn't read it that way unit you put it in quotes! It's not what i meant!
Sure you didn't. It's okay. I understand.
@ cove. Nah. My ego says its because of me. And my ego is never wrong.... Ever
@utah. I think chasey lain did a movie on the 'fun to submit' theme a time or two
Haha. Haha.
Dear Chasey Lain,
I must constrain, this letter is my last.
As your biggest fan, I must demand
You let me....
Easy to Submit must be a writing thread somewhere.
Secrets
We were at this party in Reno, her and I. She was sitting with a slouch on the kitchen counter surrounded by her friends. I was outside in the biting cold surrounded by her friends. My every breath escaped me in little fogs. I kept her in my periphery, she kept me in hers. What were they talking about? Her friends? I can't remember.
But I remember the music. She must have chosen the playlist because all of the songs were so good. That's what I liked the most about her, she always listened to the best music. Drumming her fingers so softly on me as we listened to songs. Then a familiar one came on, a sad one. "The Funeral" by Band of Horses.
I did well with her friends, kept my cool. They kept asking probing questions about how the 2 of us met and i didn't volunteer much information. They were sent by her new boyfriend and if he found out the truth about what her and I used to be, he'd cause her problems. So they didn't get the answers they wanted. I kept our secret. I knew about that Band of Horses concert she went to years ago and how it made her cry. I think I'm one of the only people alive who knows about it.
The song is playing inside and I can hear it outside so I watch her in there surrounded by her friends. Now they're talking about the song playing, asking what it is. She lights up and says loudly how they're really good live. Nobody seems to notice her so she slouches back down. Then she looks out at me, right through the door into my eyes. The air suspends between us. I send her a tiny shrug and a half-smile. Her mouth twitches in sadness and she hops down from the counter and disappears into the house so I won't see her cry. Or maybe it was so her friends won't see her cry. They can't know our secret. He can't know our secret.
The rest of the party was unremarkable.
@Conley, nice stuff! I really like your ending line. Says alot in a few words, which is always the sign of good writing. Well done!
Thanks. I actually tacked on the last line because i didn't like how it ended. I wasn't sure if it would work. I almost wrote a crime story last night too but maybe i'll save that one for next time.
I'm fucking drunk. I am going to write somehting now and see what comes out.
Amber
By Hetch Litman
I had to kill it. Sometimes situations dictate death, I’ve come to accept. It was not personal. It wasn’t like it was something muddle-headed like the color of her hair or the way her cunt might smell like iron, thick with mensttal blood when she walked past me. It was not something fatuous like the way her whore high heels clicked or the weight of her dress. No, it wasn't something puerile like her purple contact lenses or senseless like sheer stockings, and definitely not something immature like the shape of her hard jaw or the passive silhouette of her calf framed by brick buildings and water. There is always water, blue and soft. No, it was none of those petty or cheap reasons. It was much deeper and than that. More conspicuous. It was her throat. The Adams apple. Her cock.
Rewind sixteen minutes. Go back 3 shots of Rare Breed and a sterling silver pipe scoop of coke. Retract nine hundred and sixty seconds from this smoke charged bar stool and maybe it would not have had to come to this. Hey Honey how are you? Buy a lady a drink (voice Mellissa Etheride gruff, sexy) Canter, hop, hurdle or jerk a head in repose, flick a thumb and hitchhike, mindful of time and water, always mindful of water, rearward, plunge or pounce practically away from what has now to happen and the life of this asshole might have had a fucking chance. Practicality dictates some modicum of respect for life after all. But not this time. Not now. Never now. Never nows. Never this times.
I never buy a drink for someone whos name I don’t know. “Amber comes the reply.Hi Amber, I’m Chuck. What are you drinking?”
To be fair his lipstick ring tattoos the base of my cock isnt a bad color. Some kind of Saint Germain or Speak Louder or perhaps a politely pink. It Actually brings out the cream in my helmet and the cherry in my shaft. The blood from his busted incisors, though, (a stike from my commonplace, nude knee), sticks to my sack as I hold his head under truculent blue toilet water, (a cinematographers dream shot to be sure) frothing and determined to escape the bowl.
"Hey honey, how are you? Buy a mother fucker a drink?" I ask genuinely concerned as my eyes drink in the quite feminine ass and my right hand, disguised as a fist connects with his kidneys. A hundred bubbles thank me in vivid, television commercial blue as this things lung or two purge air. Before the meat dies, I let it breath. I gather the real long hair toward my chin, give it breath, and whisper in its ear. “You made me do this.”
My cum coated its mouth before I found the worm in its pants. Being raised by a single mother and not a father killed this asshole. Think about it. Wellsian music gets higher in the register and more pronounced. Louder and more articulated. Now, wait. Just wait. Wait there, secure in your pajamas, head on your pillow . Just wait. Do you hear that? Those are screams. Lucky for me the band, babyland, has not stopped playing. Hopefully no one has to jack off, you’d be surprised how many people jack off in a club bathroom. I wouldn’t sit on the seats if I were you. That or piss and then no one else has to die.
Maybe I can beat the demons out of this cocksucker. This faggot has gone hopefully vegetable. Sure, He'll get an outpouring of support from the community and maybe the radio left and mayhap I'll be demonized. It's just the way of the world today. It sort of gives me superpowers though, but only if it's dead. Alive its a liberal talking piece, a martyr, something to worship and pray too. An ad in a national magazine or on NPR. Something for big city men to cry openly about on the TV, showing their feminine side. the same side that sucked my cock and I rebuke that in the name of Jesus
I've pulled the hand dryer from the wall. Don’t fret I didn’t hurt anything. It was a few paultry drywalls screws and a cumful of glue. I say out loud I've never understood them. Give me a dry domestic single ply, rough, hand towel anyday. "Amber, Isn't that what you said your name was? Thanks for the blow job." I looked at it's satisfactory bitch ass again and brought the dryer down on it's head. Again. Again. Again.
Grey pasta of brains mingled with deep red Pollock swatches of thick blood find my shoes and stroke my cheeks. I’d be mad if it wasn’t so attractive. I’d be concerned if it didn’t get me hard. Erections, after all dictate time spent. I’d be sedate if it wasn’t such a trustworthy friend. bone fragments sing falsetto and I orgasm. I think the future might smile lightly on my hands and feet that thrust kicks deep into the ribs, water, again, splashing and dancing making me smile large and in charge.
I check out its cock. I wonder if it was always that small or if female hormones made it shrivel, balls small and sack empty. From behind, head smashed in the bowl the asshole looks that same as a girls. I think of sex operations and turing scrotums inside out to make a slot and if this one had been post op how I might have fucked that slot unknowingly and it would still be breathing. I would feel pity, I think, if it lived in that precise moment. Just maybe, I think, the water might absolve it. At that moment, I biblically look to the future.
Later, in prepared remarks, written not to antagonize the jury, I am certain I will conveniently explain I didn't remember any of this. That day God will love God fearing men. Tonight, He loves Amber.
The End.
The Dogs (after The Devourers by Annie Vivanti Chartres) by J. Y. Hopkins
The puppy is walking slowly down the avenue when, suddenly, he's kicked by a transvestite. He's sad, but not hurt all that bad.
He grows up to be a pretty badass dog -- he eats people all the time. People tell stories about him like he's the yeti. But he's just a dog -- everybody knows he's there, so it's not really scary. Somebody gets eaten, but they have to die one way or another. It's not that they sympathize with him because he got kicked by a tranny, they just don't care.
The dog mates with another dog. Anyone watching would say that it was consensual, but who knows with dogs? Just because the dog doesn't try to kill the other dog, does that mean it's not rape? Who knows? It seems consensual though and the female dog has a bunch of puppies. One day, the main dog gets uppity and eats the mayor's son and is put down. The puppies have no idea how badass their daddy dog was.
Years later one of them gets kicked by a policeman, but the dog stays pretty much normal until his mom eats his sister because she gets pregnant. Then he eats his mom. No one thinks that's noteworthy, so this is the first story anybody's telling about that dog, the one who ate his mom because she ate his pregnant sister.
Lover's Rock
By Brandon Marnier
It had been a long week. Two affairs, and the discovery of seven lies about said affairs led to what was happening now. She was naked on their bed, gorgeous as always, but quiet and distant. She was thinking, about what he had done, what he had lied about. She was thinking about how much it hurt, but still she never let the pain show. She turned off. She turned off and sat there on their bed, waiting for something, anything that would break this dream of hers. If she could just wake up this wouldn’t be happening.
Secrets are kept and lies are told so often that they sound like the truth. The words that come out of his mouth sound honest but never are and that’s why she is sitting there quietly. He had hurt her, deeply, yet he did nothing to try and make up for his mistake. There was no apologies and there was no begging or groveling, which she desperately wanted him to do.
He sat there with her in comfortable silence, listening to the rain hit the window. He knew that he should apologize, that he should be on his knees begging her not to leave, but he knew that this would happen again and that it would hurt worse the next time his secrets were discovered. She looked at him, her eyes empty and dull. He knew what she wanted to say. He knew what she was thinking. Why did you do it? He wanted to answer but the truth would hurt and telling another lie was out of the question.
They stared at each other in their comfortable silence, knowing exactly where their relationship was headed, knowing that ending things would destroy one and breathe life into the other. She would go on to become a successful lawyer without him dragging her down and causing endless pain and distractions. He would become suicidal and drink himself to death within a year. His future was grim, but her future was bright.
She realized she was naked then, she remembered how excited she was to surprise him when he came home and realized how one voice message on their answering machine destroyed everything. She wished his lies were true. She put her clothes on and left. She’d be back soon to get her things but for now she needed to be alone. He sat there on the bed as she put her clothes on and when he heard their front door shut, he knew it was over. She was leaving.
This one isn't really meant as a submission, because it's an extract from something else I'm working on. This little passage though, I thought was funny. I dedicate it to Danny, because it seems like his kind of thing.
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Mother hangs from the ceiling, her bloated flanks drooping where the straps of the leather lattice are taut. She's huge, a monstrous landscape of flesh. Inguinal valleys split the mounds of her thighs and pus leaks from the creases, no doubt exuding from the abscesses hidden within. Her lower legs are withered to laughable stumps. Her crotch is clenched like a fist.
Devices like giant bidets mist her with a sticky pink fluid.
Her upper half is a quivering mass of a dozen amalgamated breasts. Nipples hang here and there like limp and broken fingers. Her face is hidden, a rubber mask strapped around her head. Three different hoses lead from the mask to piping on the ceiling. Bunches of intravenous lines run from bags of milky fluid that hang around her and puncture her sweaty, stubbly skin.
The smell in here is palpable, a warm, faecal stink that hangs in the air and seems to trail from anything that moves.
She's bloated with fluid, a blister with limbs, parts of her tight and ready to burst. She shifts her weight in the straps and her body ripples, each breast bouncing a flabby little jiggle.
The worst part though, swings between her legs. From between the knuckle shaped lips of her vagina dangles a pale yellow sac the size of a child that pulsates with urgent movement.
Um....that was creepy, it kinda made me wanna do this...
*blows a kiss*
It's an extract from a story I was hoping to have finished for my mum in time for mother's day. Alas, I don't know if I will ever finish it now. I got bored or distracted or something. Maybe I will go back to it sometime.
@aleinsoul77
man, that's a great one. You can see where the stuntman missed the center and hit the frame. Perfect.
^^^^^^ Good stuff up there people.
Alright, only a few days left!
I reckon you are on with your toughest call yet, Chester matey, trying to whittle down all the March posts into five for a vote. Best of luck. It is going to be a good one.